Saturday, May 30, 2009

Life is not fair

I'm in a vulnerable place right now.....alone at midnight, on a Saturday. Many, many glasses drunk. Yet how come my mind has never felt clearer.

I've always had to work for things. Nothing ever seems to come our way...nothing. We don't live charmed lives. I'm not complaining or making excuses, but at a time like this, I feel helpless and utterly alone.

Work, finances, relationships - none of it has fallen into place for me. I've seen my friends progress into great companies, connect in great relationships.................I'm very happy for them, but at the same time....................................................

I'm tired. Tired of always feeling like things are working against us. I don't want tons of money, or fabulous clothes, or even a cellar of First Growths.......I just want peace. I want happiness. Is that too much to ask?

As I said, I'm in a vulnerable place right now. No one but a glass of mediocre Rioja to keep me company. Sigh...................................................................................................................

2 comments:

  1. dude. let's put things into perspective: I've been eating pizza all week, my fridge is empty because I have no time to shop, I've been sitting crumpled in front of my computer for weeks without enough sleep, my spine feels like it's gonna collapse.
    BUT I'm listening to chill music and the rain, so it's not so bad. Don't worry my drunk friend, things always look better after midnight.

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  2. Thanks for the comforting words Lucy.

    We'll talk when you get back.

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