Saturday, July 25, 2009

Just go

The mutual fund industry, and the Canadian economy on a whole, is in shock. That was my first line. I can't disclose for what, but it was my first, and most important, line.

Everyone understands how bad of a situation we are in now, but we still need to go about our business and just keep................living. The key is happiness right? I always say that money has no bearing on how happy you are - though it may help. What makes it depressing is that I'm not taking my own advice.

I don't spend money. No clubbing, no shopping for clothes, no daily coffee - I bring my own lunch. But I do buy wine, responsibly. However, as I referenced in Vintage Port, 2007, there are many, many wines that I simply can't buy. Not in the sense that I don't have the money - I do, but somehow, spending without thinking in this kind of climate seems reckless and incredibly irresponsible.

Which is similar to how I feel about travelling. I keep telling myself that it's going to happen, that once I save up enough, I'll go travelling the world and see all the things I've dreamed about. I'll go to Galicia and experience the terraced vineyards and salty air. I'll go to the Mosel and see the steep vines and sundial of the Wehlener Sonnenuhr. I'll go to Vatican City and marvel at St. Peter's Basilica and the Sistine Chapel. I'll go to the Cote d'Or and experience the spirituality of the Vosne-Romanée. I'll go to Santorini and marvel at how the assyrtiko vines crawl over the island. And I'll go to Otago, and experience the energy and character of pinot noir on volcanic soils.

Maybe I go alone. Maybe I'll go with someone. But the point is, I'm lying to myself when I say it'll eventually happen. That I'll go when I'm ready.

Why do we do this to ourselves? I'll buy all these fantastic wines when everything's perfect - I have enough money and a proper cellar. I'll go travelling when I've saved enough and I've got stability at home.

Ridiculous, right? Shouldn't we just be able to go for it? Why do we feel so tied down to the mundane realities of work and home? When are you going to be truly ready to do these things? With that attitude, I don't think I ever will be. And that's very sad.

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