Sunday, April 27, 2014

back and forth, push and pull ...

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Sorry for my absence. I've been busy. Not feeling up to it, lots of things on my mind, whatever - those are all excuses.

So my mom's been in Barcelona for the past 2 weeks. When she came, she brought me multi-vitamins. Strength for the body. But what she also brought was fortification for the spirit. As it turns out, I needed more of that. Life has been fantastic here, it really has ... but I really needed some time with my mom.

We spent just under a week in Madrid, and have been going all over Barcelona these past few days. Not easy to attend classes (on minimal sleep already) and then muster some energy to go out at night. But what are we going to do ... stay at home to rest? What will we talk about in 10 years - how I was able to rest well while she was here and do all my cases, or all the adventures we had that one week in Barcelona? Easy choice here.

I wanted to just say one thing, these last few hours of being 27. It's been an incredible year, but this birthday seems extra special. I feel like coming here has taught me so much, and above all, despite all the talk about the need for me to be more selfish, I'm more capable of caring for others. I've learned that happiness - true happiness - comes from my ability, through actions small and seemingly insignificant, to make those I care about feel loved, appreciated, and cared for. That's where my happiness comes from. So now, before my birthday, and before my mother goes back home, I feel a bit sentimental, a bit melancholy, a bit, dare I say, sad. But all that is temporary, because I know why I'm here, that this is exactly where I need to be.

Pushing and pulling, a constant back and forth ... but as long as we stay true to ourselves, we'll find the way.


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